Bachata…The End…

So, last night was my last Bachata class. Yes, I could continue and move on from Total Beginner to Level 1, but right now, it’s too much to rush from work every Wednesday trying to race through rush hour traffic to get to class in 30 minutes. Under “normal” circumstances, 30 minutes would be plenty of time to get from work to dance class, but in rush hour traffic, it’s pushing it. The town that I work in is not really close to the town where the dance studio is located.  I truly want to continue as I believe many of my classmates will continue. It’s nearly impossible to find men who know how to dance, so that’s just another reason why I enjoyed the class so much!  Besides, Andres, the instructor really knows how to teach and demonstrate his instruction in a way that’s easy to copy, learn and emulate.

I did not ask every man his name, but did ask two guys, Charles and Robert. Charles is in NO way a beginner. He did a lot of “advanced” moves with me. I don’t think Robert realizes how good he is or how easy it is to follow him.  I look forward to dancing with both of them again some day…

I wanted to share a video of Bachata dancing, but alas, I could not find a CLEAN video to share. I know and understand that Bachata is a sensual dance, but my goodness…I’m sure one exists, I just couldn’t find one to share here before 8pm, when the date on this post will change.  So, I better hit the publish button.

Some day, I’m going to have someone take a video of me dancing…

 

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God Did Not Heal Me

I’ve been wanting to share this for a minute.

I was going about my business one day when God spoke to me. It was out of the blue while I was walking from one room to another…or at least that’s how I remember it. God does that a lot. I rarely get answers during quiet time or prayer time. It’s usually while I’m doing something that God just blurts something out. I don’t mind, though because I’m just happy that He speaks to me at all.

God told me why He did not heal me and allowed me to undergo my first ever surgery. Let me just say, it was the absolute WORST pain I have ever endured!!!

After leaving the hospital, I went to a rehab facility because I live alone and had no one to assist me during my recovery. So, I had to learn how to get in and out of the bed and how to put my socks and shoes on in a way that would cause the least amount of pain. It wasn’t until I got to the rehab facility that I found out that my doctor put staples in me. Call me crazy, but I think that’s definitely something a doctor should mention to a patient either before or after the surgery!!! I later found out that rehab places inspect your body upon arrival in the event there is a claim of abuse. So yeah, the nurse at an entirely separate facility informed me that I had staples in my body. Don’t you just love doctors??!!

Anyway, one morning I was sitting alone at a table in the dining room waiting to have breakfast when I see two guys in wheelchairs coming into the dining room. Most of the other tables were full, so one guy calls over to me and asks if he can join me and of course I said, “yes, c’mon over”. I mean, who wants to eat alone in a room full of people?!

They both sat at the table with me. The other guy left not long after finishing his breakfast, but Bill and I sat there for a while just talking. I don’t recall what Bill said, but it was something that led me to ask if he was saved and he said yes.  Later at lunch, Bill shared his testimony. Bill asked me what church I attend and I told him and we discovered that he knows a couple guys at my church, one of them being the missions pastor.

So, long story short, if God had chosen to heal me, I never would have had that operation, never would have gone to the rehab facility and never would have met Bill. God used Bill to bless me during a very difficult time in my life over the summer.

Before anybody gets any ideas, let me tell you he’s old enough to be my father and a stand-up guy. Bill is also a veteran with his own health concerns. God has blessed Bill so that he can be a blessing to others.

So, the moral of the story is this, just because God does not heal you or answer your prayers the way that you want Him to, does NOT mean that God is neglecting you, abandoning you or forgetting about it. God ALWAYS has our best interests in mind and will do His will on our behalf…always for OUR benefit and to bless US!

I feel compelled to share this song again…

 

Ballroom Dance Partner Wanted – Craigslist Ad

I haven’t shared much about what’s been going on with me and my ballroom dancing.

I believe it was Labor Day that I reignited my quest to find a ballroom dance partner by placing yet another ad on craigslist.org. I have been placing ads on craigslist for a few years…yeah…because it just THAT HARD to find a man who enjoys ballroom dancing!!!  Yeah, and that’s just how DESPERATE I am to sink to the level of posting on craigslist, but it hasn’t been all…bad.  I have made one friend who responded a couple years ago. Sometimes I go dancing with him and his wife. Yeah, you know I’m keeping it on the up-and-up. The wife has met me and I don’t do anything without her knowing or permission. That is NOT how I roll.  In fact, I just saw him last Tuesday at the Salsa class that I started and asked where his wife was…she was taking another dance class elsewhere.  I think it’s so cool how they do so many activities together…THAT’S how you keep your marriage positive.

Anyway, most of the people who have been responding to this “round” of ad posts have NO dance experience!!!  How on earth do you respond to an ad looking for a dance partner if you can’t dance???!!! I’m NOT a dance instructor and even if I were, I don’t want to teach anybody, I want to practice to improve my own skills.

Saturday night, Oct. 15th I met up with 2 guys who responded. Unfortunately, the night was a complete bust because the dance studio where I’m taking a Bachata class was practically empty except for the people who looked like they were practicing for a competition. There was only a handful of couples who appeared to be dancing for the pure joy of dancing. The one guy never left his seat. I tried to get him to dance with me, but he kept turning me down. The other guy can NOT lead at all.  I’ve NEVER stepped on someone’s foot…I’m not talking about toes because I never touched his toes, but his FOOT!!!  We were doing a very basic move in Salsa, forward step & back step and then he turned me. I don’t know what he did, but before I could complete my turn, his foot was under mine and I almost elbowed him in the mouth!!!  Now, I danced Salsa Friday, Oct. 7th at the same dance studio and did NOT step on anyone, so I KNOW this mishap was NOT my fault!!!  In fact, I was able to follow this dancer so well, that he complemented, especially after I revealed to him that I had NEVER done half of the moves that he was able to lead me in. He (Tom) told me that I did very well following him!

I should get a commission from all of the people that I have referred to 2 dance studios with the best prices and instruction in my area. I’ve suggested these studios to every single one of these guys who have responded not knowing how to dance.

The other unfortunate problem with posting on craigslist is all the guys who think they will have sex with me.  I’ve posted in the ‘Activities’ section as well as the ‘Strictly Platonic’ section and still I get a slew of perves.  I guess it goes with the “territory”.

Well, I guess only time will tell if I’ll be able to find anyone serious about dancing ballroom. Lord, Jesus, help me!!!

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Testimony Time

I’ve been meaning to write this testimony for over a month. I guess the hesitation stems from my intense grip on my privacy, yet at the same time, I want to shout from the mountain tops how my God is ALWAYS faithful, never will He leave me, never will He forsake me.

Sinners (because we are ALL sinners, even after being born-again) find favor with the Father!!!

Now, I’m not going to go into ALL of the details simply because I just have too many other things to do and quite frankly, I’m tired.

Anyway, I resigned from my job in May 2016. Actually, I handed in my resignation in April, but my last day of work was in May. It was something that I wanted to do 2 weeks after I began working at this organization, but I kept telling myself that it would get better. Clearly, it did not, which is why I am no longer working there.

God saw everything that I had been through and what was being done to me around the time of my resignation. It was not something I was comfortable doing because as everyone knows, jobs are extremely tough to come by these days, regardless of what the liberal media tries to make us believe. My prayer was that God would give me a job by September 2016. If I did not get another job by September, my situation would become dire.

So, I went on craigslist.org to find a part time job one day. I found a post looking for someone to clean an office one day a week. I thought about applying, but immediately thought, “they’re never going to hire me because I’m a college grad with a lot of professional work experience”.  I waited a couple of days and thought, I have to apply regardless of what I think might happen.

I’m glad I applied because God’s word became real in yet another way in my life. If we will humble ourselves, God will exalt us. I applied, interviewed and was practically hired on the spot! I cleaned the office one Thursday evening and then I get an email on Friday and thought, “oh no, what did I forget to do, I’m getting fired”.

Nope, she emailed me to tell me what a good job I did and asked if I was looking for full time employment. Long story short, the company created a job for me. It’s a position that is needed, so I’m thankful. I’m thankful for God’s faithfulness and for answering my prayer to have a job by September. In fact, I had 2 job offers by the end of August!

I’m thankful that God allows me to find FAVOR in the eyes of non-believers. I’m thankful to find favor with God despite the fact that I fail Him every single day…He loves me regardless and loves me unconditionally!!!

I’m now reminded of something my pastor said in today’s sermon: You cannot have a testimony without the test!  I already knew this, but it’s a helpful reminder. I tell myself this every time I’m going through a difficult time: I’m going to have an AMAZING testimony!

Now, I cannot end this without being totally HONEST. This is NOT my dream job and no, I do not see myself working for this company long term, but I’m thankful to have a job. I’m still striving for my dream job and praying each day that God will answer that prayer in the affirmative!

In closing, the take-away points to remember are: humble thyself and God will exalt you, draw near to Him and He will draw near to you, never lose hope, pray without ceasing and you cannot have a testimony without the test.

Thank you, Lord Jesus, for loving me much more than I deserve, MUAH!!!

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