I’m back…

I can’t believe it’s been 2 months and 2 days since my last post.

Much has happened.

I was reminded that born-again Christians go through the same grieving process that the rest of the world goes through. The 7 Stages of Grief are real and we all experience some or all of them. I definitely went through the Denial and Anger stages of grief after Bill Lupetti passed.

Thankfully, I was wise enough to ask for prayer because I was too angry to pray for myself! I’m living proof that prayer works because God did not hesitate to answer the prayers of those who prayed that I would quickly get over my anger. I must admit, being angry with God, whom I love more than life itself, it one of the absolute WORST feelings in the world. When I couldn’t take it anymore, I ask for prayer at a women’s prayer breakfast at church. God answered that prayer pretty quickly and I’m thankful because otherwise, the anger would have consumed me.

Why was I angry? For the same reasons anyone else would be angry when someone they care about passes away. Just because I’m saved and Bill was saved doesn’t spare either of us from experiencing the same emotions and feelings that any other human experiences. Yes, I know where Bill is and I know that he has received his crown of glory along with his new body and I know he is no longer in pain, but as selfish as it is…I still wanted Bill here for just a little while longer. I needed more time with him. I needed to tell him things that I never got a chance to say.  It’s a sharp reminder to take hold of every opportunity that we have with those we love and care about because tomorrow is not promised to any of us.

I went to visit Bill’s grave on the one month anniversary of his passing. I didn’t do anything other than talk to him as if he were still here with me.  I haven’t looked at any of the photos I took at Bill’s viewing or funeral…I’m just not ready yet. Perhaps on Monday for Memorial Day.

For anyone else who may be suffering the loss of a loved one or going through any other difficult situation, remember God is faithful and true to His word: never will I leave you, never will I forsake you.

God knows what we’re going through…each and every single one of us.

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God Isn’t Finished, Yet

There is so much I could say here and I’ve said most of it in my head, but I’ll just say this: be careful what you pray for because He is faithful to give it to you. So, if you pray for patience, God will surely give you a trial to teach you how to be patient. If you ask God to increase your trust, He will surely send a trial to teach you to trust HIM. I think you get the point. I’m NOT saying you should not pray for these things (because God will teach you these things anyway), I’m just making you aware of how my Abba Father, operates.   Seriously though, God dips each of us into the refiner’s fire for our benefit to transform us into the men and women He created us to be.

One last bit of encouragement, DO NOT compare yourself to anyone else. I’ve met people who have been saved for decades who are still sucking on breast-milk while some folks who just got saved have moved on to the grown folk’s table and are now chewing on meat & potatoes.  You have your own Romans Road, so just walk it out knowing that God isn’t finished with you yet because He who is faithful will finish what He started.

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Alone Time With God

I need my alone time with God. I remember when I used to work in NYC and would get to work extra early so that I could spend time with my dearest Dad.  I also remember being so rigid that I’d get annoyed if someone interrupted us, until I finally gave in and accepted the obvious…God was sending people to me for a reason, and that reason was NOT so I could feel annoyed, but rather for me to share His Word with whomever was “interrupting” me.  It was a huge reminder that we ALL need to be open to those “interruptions” which are really divine appointments.

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