I wish I had learned my ABC’s this way!
Christianity can be condensed into four words: admit, submit, commit and transmit, by Samuel Wilberforce.
There is so much I could say here and I’ve said most of it in my head, but I’ll just say this: be careful what you pray for because He is faithful to give it to you. So, if you pray for patience, God will surely give you a trial to teach you how to be patient. If you ask God to increase your trust, He will surely send a trial to teach you to trust HIM. I think you get the point. I’m NOT saying you should not pray for these things (because God will teach you these things anyway), I’m just making you aware of how my Abba Father, operates. Seriously though, God dips each of us into the refiner’s fire for our benefit to transform us into the men and women He created us to be.
One last bit of encouragement, DO NOT compare yourself to anyone else. I’ve met people who have been saved for decades who are still sucking on breast-milk while some folks who just got saved have moved on to the grown folk’s table and are now chewing on meat & potatoes. You have your own Romans Road, so just walk it out knowing that God isn’t finished with you yet because He who is faithful will finish what He started.
I need my alone time with God. I remember when I used to work in NYC and would get to work extra early so that I could spend time with my dearest Dad. I also remember being so rigid that I’d get annoyed if someone interrupted us, until I finally gave in and accepted the obvious…God was sending people to me for a reason, and that reason was NOT so I could feel annoyed, but rather for me to share His Word with whomever was “interrupting” me. It was a huge reminder that we ALL need to be open to those “interruptions” which are really divine appointments.